Thursday, March 29, 2007

Soon is Right!

First of all, I want to thank you for your well wishes and welcome backs. Your comments made me feel missed - and meant a lot especially because I read all of your blogs regularly... even when I'm on hiatus. I may lurk, but I read and I discuss the things you blog about with Daniel like I'm discussing my "real life" friends.

Secondly, since a lot of you mentioned how soon Zoe will be here and Jen asked how excited or anxious I was, I thought I would address that. Here. Now.

As of today (well, in 2 hours) I am 32 weeks pregnant. I'm officially beginning the first day of my eighth month. I would have 57 days left of being pregnant if I were to carry for the full 40 weeks and give birth on May 25, 2007. I have all these little details emailed to me weekly and marked on my iCal in green for "medical". If you're one of my myspace pals, you'll see a countdown to this effect and a ticker as well. Right now it's ALL about how much time left before Zoe makes her debut. How much time left before it's too late to get everything done and we are in the middle of being parents.

The day we left for San Antonio, our OB/GYN told Daniel and me that he plans to induce me early because of my Gestational Diabetes and my current use of insulin to keep it under control. I've been doing really well controlling it with diet and exercise, but as the pregnancy moves forward and my hormones increase it becomes necessary to add in a little bit of insulin. I'm giving myself 7mg (in my belly) every night before bed. Anywho.... the whole inducing thing makes me a little nervous. We were so wrapped up in our family emergency and our travel plans that we didn't really ask any questions about when or what that meant as far as me and Zoe are concerned. I automatically assumed it would be sometime after 35 weeks and then read somewhere it's usually after 37 weeks. For all we know it could only be a week early. Regardless, time is ticking and we'll have our Zoe in less than 8 weeks.

We're both very, very excited. We're looking forward to being parents. We can't wait to see her and to hold her and have her in our lives. We talk a lot about how we want to raise her and all the things we want to teach her and experience with her. We have friends (and complete strangers) who tell us to enjoy our freedom while we have it - and we have been, but we're thrilled to have this new addition coming into our lives. We're not concerned with going out less for dinner and movies, etc because we think we'll be able to handle it. We'll find a happy medium... and hopefully all those friends and family who have volunteered to baby-sit won't take back their promises when we need to escape for an hour or so.

I'm starting to feel really anxious about the labor and delivery. I'm not freaked out about having Zoe in our house and being responsible for her... it's everything that happens in the hospital. I've had my share of procedures and drama in hospitals, but what we're getting ready for is not like anything I have ever been through. I'm hoping she's not a huge baby. I'm hoping she gets herself turned the right way. I have anxiety dreams where I am in labor for days and days.

Last night I dreamt that the labor went by very quickly and I only had to push once, but Zoe turned out to be a Connor and he came out wearing glasses and looking like an old man. He had dark hair that was receding and a big ol' bald spot on the back of his head. When the doc placed him on my chest, he sat up on his legs sort of like Bailey does and was very close in size to her. It freaked me out, but I loved him completely. And then I started stressing about needing to redo the nursery.

We're taking Lamaze classes, and while very informative... they tend to feed my overactive imagination even as they answer all these questions I've had. The teacher is quite the character. I'll have to tell you about her later.

Daniel, of course has been amazing through all of this. He's completely supportive and puts my fears at ease when I tell him I'm afraid of actually delivering her. He's a great coach and never complains about the time commitment of all these classes I've enrolled us in. He’s also a fun person to vent with about our kooky teacher. I couldn't imagine doing this with anyone else. Zoe and I are extremely lucky.

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

I'm Baack....

After 23 days away from blogging. Do I feel refreshed? Nah. Not really. But I did miss the blogging, so here I am.

What drove me away? A few things.

I was super tired. Being pregnant wears you out and I just wasn't in the mood to share stuff about me anymore.

We had a family emergency the morning I posted my hiatus blog. That was actually my main catalyst for taking a break. Blogging seemed meaningless compared to what we were dealing with – and I had (and still don’t) no intentions of sharing details of our emergency. Instead, I got into emergency mode. I ran around like a maniac trying to make travel arrangements to Texas, clean the house and pack. We had an OB/GYN appointment the following morning and were on a plane to San Antonio by 1pm. The circumstances for being in Texas were horrible, but it was great to be with Daniel’s side of the family after so long.

It was great until I got a bad case of the stomach flu or food poisoning and Daniel rushed me to the ER in Houston. I couldn't even keep down water and since Zoe wasn't getting any nutrition from me, she wasn't moving - at all. My wild, future karate star was not stirring a bit and that freaked me out. I can handle me being sick, but the worry I felt for her was unbearable. So to the ER we went. They got me into triage fast and soon I was in a wheelchair being escorted to labor and delivery. Nurses set me up to a fetal monitor and Zoe was fine. Strong, normal heartbeat and little flutters of movement. I was relieved. I was wheeled back down to the waiting room with 50 plus people who also needed a doctor. It was miserable and my back was killing me. I knew that what I really needed was to just wait the sickness out and get a lot of rest, so I told Daniel and his mom and uncle that I wanted to leave. There were people worse off than me who had been waiting since 9am to see a doc and it was already two in the afternoon. So we left and I convalesced for three days until we flew home to Bakersfield. I’ve never been so glad to be back home before.

We've been home for twelve days and it feels like it's only been a week. I'm feeling better. Well, as good as can be expected at almost 32 weeks (on Friday). I’ve got a lot of muscle aches and back pain. I've had two prenatal massages in the past 12 days and for the first time ever, went to a chiropractor and got "adjusted". I was freaked out to do this, but have read up on it being helpful in labor and delivery. Hey. Whatever helps. I go back tomorrow for another adjustment. I just found out this is all covered through our insurance so I can get adjusted and have a half hour massage for $25 at a chiropractors office instead of $65 plus tip at a salon. Yay Blue Cross.

My parents were in town last Wednesday through Sunday and it was great to have them here. They brought their parrot and their cow dog, Buffy. Seriously, she sort of looks like a cow! I mean that very affectionately. I mean, I think Bailey looks like a crazed wombat:

Sleepy


and Max looks like a chunky monkey:

dog children


It was a full house: our two dogs, their parrot, their cow, them, Daniel and one round pregnant lady - sharing our little house with one bathroom. My parents kept me moving every day they were here. We went to quite a few antique stores, walked around town, ate out every single meal and looked at baby stuff. We spent our evenings in watching season one of Arrested Development (they had never seen it) and relaxing. My dad did a few VERY helpful things around the house like putting up a new smoke detector in our kitchen and replacing our crappy showerhead. When he comes back, he’s fixing our fence in the backyard and putting up a canopy. My dad is awesome.

I'm still recovering from my lack of naps.

And really, that's it. Well, that's not really it... but it's all I'm going to share for now. I'll be back with more riveting news soon... promise.

Monday, March 05, 2007

Hiatus

Wanted to do a quick post to let y'all know I'm takng a hiatus from blogging for a bit. Between just not being that into blogging right now, the upcoming arrival of Zoe, and recent events - this just isn't on my list of priorities. I'm not sure how long it will last. Maybe a week or so... maybe longer. Who knows?

What I will say is that everything is going great with my pregnancy. Daniel and I are happy and excited and eagerly awaiting the end of May and our little girl. We replaced the red sectional with a lovely leather sofa & loveseat. The dogs don't seem to have the inclination to want to dig or eat it away to nothing and it looks nice. I know I promised photos, eventually I'll post something.

Thanks for checking in on me and my blog. Thanks for all your kind words. I'll be back. Eventually.